Numb

its raining when i came out.
its really cold my hands are freezing.
one is holding the umbrella and another in my jacket pocket.
my hand feels numb.
i like the feeling and she’d ask “why do u like the feeling?”. because when it’s numb, u dont know ur alive. when u dont think ur alive. u dont really care abt thgs. thts why i like the feeling. and she said, “like u always said…die for a minute or 2….”.