9yrs of staying in the metropolitan do change you the very least.
Viewing my friends’ online social-networking secondary photos behind anonymity, I know I’m still passive about reconnecting or that I’m still laying low, partly due to personal issues. I viewed those photos with the feeling that I was never belong yet I WAS there, sorta dejavu. I know the usage is inappropriate or rather skewed but you get my meaning. Not that I had a bad school times, it’s the contrary actually.
Perhaps, I’m too used of kl life in the past 9yrs tht kinda make me feel local and alien towards my past. It’s kind of like denying my past and only starting to accept myself at present times but then again, I do think I look way better today than I was many many years ago LOL. Vanity is loving yourself but I doubt the opposite ain’t always necessary because I’m not vain but I love myself.
Suddenly, I wish I could be the protagonist in the butterfly effect, change my past. I wonder how will I reconstruct my past. That’s surely a million dollar question baby. But then again, it’s a weird feeling.
Sometimes, I imagine that my future marriage will be dearth of many KK (secondary)/friends attendance due to the fact that I was not in KK for quite a while and laid low through out so my popularity is definitely rock bottom. but 9yrs did change me. I’d like to think I’m a lot simpler or at least have a more simplistic view of life. Minimal desire of materialism hopefully, just the best of health and happiness for all our families. So it kind a matches along anyway.
I prefer a smallish wedding as opposed to a grandeur ones. One that is attended by mostly good friends. Perhaps, even some who are willing to fly from KL and all. Then just get over with the marriage and quickly get on with our simple lives Lol.
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